Tuesday, September 30, 2008

A Paraphrase

Wow! There are too many thoughts rollin' around in this brain! ........... I'm still deciding if that's a good thing or a bad thing! ;) Well, here's a quick thought from Psalm 37 ... another goal of mine, I guess.

Psalm 37:4 - "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart."

This does NOT mean that if you love Jesus, He'll give you whatever you want. NOPE! It doesn't work that way! I think a lot of people take this verse to mean that, but they are sadly mistaken. God is faithful. He takes care of us. He loves us. He has our best interest at heart. But He is not the kind of God who gives us anything and everything we want. He desires to grow us, stretch us, allow us to go through pain and unpleasant circumstances and mishaps so that we will learn to depend on Him completely! God doesn't give us our desires just to give them to us ... He has MUCH bigger plans than that! He wants us to learn more about Him in the process ... learn more about how to live for Him in the process ... learn how to be content ONLY in HIM in the process. He wants our desires to be His desires!

This is my "paraphrase" of Psalm 37:4 ---

Make JESUS the ULTIMATE pleasure of your life, and THEN your desires will be CONFORMED to HIS ... and once your desires have been conformed to His ... THEN He will give you the desires of your heart!

Another Stolen Post (continued)!

Swweeet! Yep, I'm back at it! Blogging! I know I do it too much ... but it is a great outlet for me. It is a great way to wind down from the craziness of life. And I think some of you enjoy my posts on occasion as well. ;)

Here's the rest of that stolen post from Judy's blog ..... :)

4 places I've lived:
Indianapolis ... Francis Lane ... right down the street from my favorite cousin, Megan (until I was almost 6).
DANVILLE! The best town in the world!
Clayton, Indiana ... we were living with some friends for some reason ... perhaps it was during our transition to good old Danville.
And yeah ... that's all. Can't even name 4 places.

4 TV shows I watch:
Yeah ... I don't watch much TV. But when I do ... these are my favorites -
The Cosby Show (my all-time favorite!)
Family Matters
Bonanza
3 2 1 Penguins (I watch it on Saturday mornings sometimes ... heck yes, I love cartoons!)

4 places I've been:
Ducktown, Tennessee .... we stopped their on our way to a mission trip :) ... I mention it simply because Ducktown is about the coolest name for a town you can think of, and I was there once!
Bogalusa, Louisiana - this was the BEST mission trip EVER - and I got to go twice!
Texas/Mexico border ... mission trip my freshman year of high school - this is the farthest I've been away from home.
Poplar Bluff, Missouri - that's where my youth pastors live! And I get to see them in 32 days!!!!!!!!!!!!

4 websites I visit daily:
www.funandfaithful.blogspot.com - I love checking for comments ... and yeah, I usually leave a post just about everyday! ;)
www.midsummermeanderings.blogspot.com - yep, I heart your blog, Judy! :)
www. (Hannah's blog) .com - yeah, I forget your address, HayBay.
www. (Emily's blog) .com - and yeah, I forget your address too, em.

4 of my favorite foods:
POTATOES! - mashed, fried, baked!
STEAK!
Los Rancheros - chips and cheese dip!
Bean burrito from Taco Bell

4 places I'd rather be right now:
Calvary Chapel
Grace Fellowship
Higher Ground
New Zealand!

Okay ..... so that was fun! Off to read my Bible and do some homework! Have a fantastic day, my blogger friends! :D

Monday, September 29, 2008

Another Stolen Post! ;)

Yeah ... so I know I'm addicted to my blog. It's a lot like e-mail. When I need a break from homework throughout the day, I check my e-mail. I LOVE getting mail! I also check my blog - I LOVE getting comments! Waaay too much fun! Okay, so anyway ... I was checking Judy's blog this afternoon for a school project - honest! I am writing a biography about her for one of my non-fiction writing classes, and she pointed me to her blog for a couple of the questions. But! On my way to finding the posts about how she met her Mike, I stumbled across a fun "about me" kind of post. Yeah. I'll have to check the fun Mike posts after class. I've got about 8.25 1/2 minutes until I have to leave for class. Eek! We'll see if I can do this in that time! You know me! I'm oober longwinded!

4 jobs I've had:
1. "Assistant book handler" for my mom's book business - sorting books, stocking books on shelves, pricing books, pushing heavy shelves full of books, carrying heavy boxes of books, staring at books, taking money for books ... but hardly ever reading books. (June 2003 to present!)
2. IUPUI University Writing Center .... I read folk's papers and help them make their papers stronger. :) (Last fall to present) I love this job!
3 & 4 .... yeah, I haven't had any other jobs.

4 movies I'd watch over and over again:
Hairspray! .... I love musicals!
Pride and Prejudice (the Keira Knightley version) ... it's one of those comfort movies.
Monsters Inc. ... one of the BEST animated movies of all time!
Princess Bride ... wow, a good one!

One minute and counting .... shoot. It is impossible. I am way too longwinded. I'm off to my Religion class!

"Another Stolen Post" ... TO BE CONTINUED ................

Thoughts from the Psalms :)

I've been reading through the Psalms in the mornings when I first get to school, and God has been using them as a shower of peace in my life. And my favorite thing about the Psalms (about all of God's Word, for that matter!) is that ... this is my 4th journey through them, and I am getting something NEW out of EVERY chapter! Isn't that crazy? And tons of fun? Indeed! ... Today, I just wanted to share a couple of thoughts (passages from the Psalms with perhaps some Mical thoughts too) with you all. :)

Psalm 31:1-10
"In You, O Lord, I have taken refuge; let me never be put to shame; deliver me in Your righteousness. Turn Your ear to me, come quickly to my rescue; be my rock of refuge, a strong fortress to save me. Since You are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of Your name lead and guide me. Free me from the trap that is set for me, for you are my refuge. Into Your hands I commit my spirit; redeem me, O Lord, the God of truth. I hate those who cling to worthless idols; I trust in the Lord. I will be glad and rejoice in Your love, for You saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul. You have not handed me over to the enemy but have set my feet in a spacious place. Be merciful to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief. My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction, and my bones grow weak."

I have felt much like this Psalm over the past 6 weeks, and I am encouraged to know that the great heroes of the Bible (David, in this case) struggled just as I do now. If you get down to it, they probably struggled FAR more than I do - another thought that is good to think about ... it helps me keep things in perspective. ;) I also like this passage because it talks about God being our REFUGE. I've been searching out the Psalms for the word refuge ... and have been dwelling a bit on what it means for God to be my refuge. Good stuff! Look up the definition of "refuge" in the dictionary, and dwell on it for awhile. God is our refuge! Our shelter! Our hiding place! Our safety and comfort and place of peace from the world's/life's crazies! ;)

And this morning I was reading Psalms 34 and 35. Psalm 34:18 stuck out ... ha! God is so hilarious and great - giving me verses right when I need 'em ... and in a "See, Mical ... I AM taking care of things" kind of way.

Psalm 34:18
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

Isn't it great how God brings reminders that pinpoint EXACTLY how we are feeling and give us hope and a promise for all of our needs? Yep, it's great!

Alrighty ... back to homework! Just wanted to share some cool Psalms with ya'll today! Keep reading your Bibles! Love you all!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Happy Thoughts!!! :D

So I have two thoughts to share with ya'll tonight. :) Happy thoughts!

#1 - I have the BEST friends in the world! I hung out with many of them all afternoon. We had lunch at Fazoli's .... and ya know, true friends can always tell when you're "not right." They can always tell when you've been crying or when your demeanor is out of the ordinary ... yep, another rough day for me ... but I was so encouraged that my friends could tell from the moment I got to lunch. Yay for Ben, Alex, and Matt! :D I heart you guys! ... So we ate lunch, and then we headed to Beasley's Orchard for an afternoon of food and a cornmaze and football! Way too much fun! And even though my team got whomped on in football, I got to tackle Ben once, score a touchdown or two, and get high fives from Matt Harris. The side hug from Ben, conversations with Alex, laughs with Jesse, and the smiles from Matt were also a boost! Yay for friends! And yay for MY AMAZING friends who NEVER cease to boost my spirit!

#2 - Youth group (Common Ground was tonight) was amazing today! We had folks from Grace Fellowship, Pittsboro United Methodist, and Calvary all at our church, and it was a great encouragement!!!! ... I FINALLY worked up the courage to talk to the Pittsboro folks ... not that they're scary people or anything, I'm just not SUPER outgoing by nature - I have to work at it! So I put my "wanna be" boldness into action, and it was great! I introduced myself to their entire youth group - a group of about 15 middle school and high school students. :) I even remember all of their names!!! And later that night, I talked with a girl named Chelsey - she loves musicals just like me! A girl named Alissa got excited to talk to me - even shared that her birthday was this week ... and it was just fun to be liked. :) And my favorite! A guy named Matt asked me if I was coming to the next Common Ground ... I said "Oh yeah!" and he said "sweet," and then proceeded to tell me that he plays the bass for their worship band at Pittsboro UM. He was so excited to tell me! It was great! Soooo exciting!

Out of all the crazy things happening in my life. Out of all the "lack" of direction God is giving (yeah, it's not really a lack of direction ... it's just Him waiting to tell me ... trying to stay positive here!) ;) ... but out of all the crazy things God has taken away and allowed into my life over the past 6 weeks, YOUTH GROUP is THE experience/ministry/CALLING (Yes, Ben - I'm called!) ;) ... in which I KNOW God is saying "Rock out, Mical! Serve! Love! Pour yourself into these girls (even the guys to some extent)! Be my vessel! THIS is what I'm calling you to do right NOW!" It is pretty exciting!

God is continuing to heal and restore in many areas of my life. I'm gonna have down days ... I'm human. What can I say? ;) But God is soooo faithful "to will and to act according to His good purpose" (Philippians 2:13). God is soooo faithful to complete the good work He started in me - and in YOU! (Philippians 1:6). He is soooo faithful to work things out for our good ("for those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose" - that's me! That's you!) (Romans 8:28). He HAS plans to "prosper [us] and not to harm [us], plans to give [us] a HOPE and a FUTURE!" (Jeremiah 29:11). He is soooo faithful to guide us and teach us! (Psalm 25:4-5 and Psalm 32:8). And He promises to heal and restore comfort to us! (Isaiah 57:18-19). WOW! No matter how down I get some days ... I am excited that I have these promises to hold onto! Our God is faithful!

Keep leaning on HIM for STRENGTH! Keep seeking His face! Keep loving on Him as He lavishes YOU with His mighty and never-failing LOVE! Don't give up! Don't even think it! Don't let your sorrows, your broken heart, your messed up circumstances pull you away from Jesus! Don't let your focus get off of HIM! LOVE HIM! CHERISH HIM! SERVE HIM! SEEK HIM ALL THE HARDER THIS WEEK! Make this your #1 goal this week - to spend more GENUINE and QUALITY time with your SAVIOR!!!! THAT is what MY #1 goal is for this week!!!!! (And be sure to keep me accountable! Ask me how I did/how I'm doing this week!)

Our God is faithful! Lean on Him this week!!!! That's what I'm gonna do!

"Oh, HEAL and RESTORE us, Lord. Be GLORIFIED IN and THROUGH us!!! We LOVE YOU, ALMIGHTY Lord and God!!!!!!"

Saturday, September 27, 2008

"Me" Poem :)

Wow! 3 posts from me in one day! Aren't you excited?! ;) Well, when I submitted my "Where I'm From" poem, I remembered a poem I wrote during an IUPUI University Writing Center staff meeting. (Yep, we do fun stuff in the UWC!) We wrote "Me" poems. This poem is kind of a fill-in-the-blank poem. The idea is to write your first name on the first line. 3 (or more) characteristics that describe you on the second line, "relative of ".... (fill in the blank) on the third line, "lover of" ... on the 4th, "who feels" ... on the 5th, "who needs" ... on the 6th, "who fears" ... on the 7th, "who gives" ... on the 8th, and "resident of" ... on the 9th line. Lastly, you write your last name as the last line. This is what my "Me" poem looks like. :) Steal this for your own blog, so I can get to know you better! Yay! Enjoy! :)

"Me" Poem

Mical
A loving, striving, encouraging goofball.
Relative of Wesley Robert (my little brother).
Lover of Jesus, people, and music.
Who feels nervous yet excited.
Who needs overwhelming joy.
Who fears broken relationships.
Who gives encouragement.
Resident of Danville, Indiana - my favorite town in the world!
Masterson.

This poem was written at the UWC staff meeting a day before school started. If I were to re-write this poem now (and I am!), then it would look like this.

Mical
A loving, striving, encouraging goofball.
Relative of an amazing group of friends called family.
Lover of Jesus, people, and music.
Who feels completely broken yet at peace (most of the time).
Who needs overwhelming joy and a hug.
Who fears broken relationships.
Who gives encouragement.
Resident of purpose in Christ alone.
Masterson.

Slightly different. Yeah ... God is faithful. Have a great Saturday, blogger friends! :D

"Where I'm From" Poem

Hey again! I was reading Judy and Hannah's blogs the other day, and I noticed that they both have poems on their pages ... specifically the "Where I'm From" poem. I'm not a big poem person, but poems that help us get to know each other better are oober fun! (or uber fun - whichever you like). I decided to steal their idea ... so here's my "Where I'm From" poem. After you read it, you should steal it too! Enjoy! ;)

Where I'm From

I'm from
Sharing my birthday with my little brother.
From Aladdin, a circus, pirates, and spies all before my 12th birthday.
From "demon child" cured by consistent spankings.

I'm from
Homeschooling, a struggle to read, and restless learning.
I'm from "one of the guys," spy clubs, and tree houses.
From a mostly forgotten childhood.

I'm from
A mom who works hard and perseveres,
A dad who encourages and provides,
And late night conversations and card games with my little brother.
From a spiritual and emotional foundation that will carry me through the rest of my life.

I'm from
Church every Sunday morning, every Sunday night, every Wednesday night.
I'm from application teaching.
From NIV Bible study, note-taking on NIV pages, and prayer journals.

I'm from
A LOVE for public school and GROWTH from public school.
From "You're our shooting leader on the Danville Middle School 'B' Team."
From overweight, out-of-shape 8th grade cut from the basketball team.
From a freshman in high school giving up basketball to sing.
From Warrior Choir, showchoir, and FCA.

I'm from
Growth through trials,
lessons learned and learning.
From pain and joy and heartache and hope.
I'm from God being the "strength of my heart and my portion forever."

Favorite Family Ever: Bumblebee

Alright. So I've waited long enough to talk about some special friends. My favorite family in the world - the Cooks/Adamsons gang! :) This family has been a sense of comfort, friendship, and humor in my life for the past 15 years (since we started going to Calvary back in 1993). They are some of my favorite people ever!

So my first story (or couple of stories) is about my friend, Melissa. I've only known Melissa for a year or so, but she is apart of this amazing family (Jason's fiance - you'll hear about Jason in later posts). :) Melissa is one of the sweetest people I know! Crazy competitive! Fun, cute, and kind. Two of my favorite memories of Melissa involve an encouraging talk and the word "bumblebee."

This past summer I went to the Wheeler Mission (now the Shepherd Church) camp with James ... we were hanging out with crazy and loved inner city kids for three days. James really needed some more guys to help, so I asked Jason to come along. And since Jason and Melissa are attached (:)), Melissa came along in the afternoons when she got off work. Melissa, Emily, and I were taking some downtime from the kids one night at camp. We were talking in an empty room in one of the cabins. I don't remember how this conversation started, but Melissa started talking about how she and Jason thought I was a great person. I wish I could remember the context. But she said something to the affect of "When Jason and I know you like someone or are friends with them, we agree they must be pretty cool people. We hold them to your standards." ... It wasn't a long conversation - something short within the bigger conversation - but it made my night. I think a lot of Jason and Melissa, so for them to love and accept me and even think I'm a good judge of character, is a great encouragement!

And the bumblebee. This story is amazingly simple but oh, so fun! ... So ... I laugh a lot. A LOT! If you know me well, you can vouch for this! My friend Adam (also a member of the Cooks/Adamsons gang) says that one of my "spiritual" gifts is laughter. Ha! Ha! .... I can't help it. Laughing is pretty much my favorite thing to do. But anyways ... Christina Adams (a great girl from my youth group), along with many other people, get a huge kick out of my constant laughter. Especially the fact that I'll laugh at just about anything - it doesn't take much for me to get going! ;) So Christina, Melissa, I, and the rest of the SoZo gang, were at youth group one Sunday night this summer, and I was laughing (just as much, if not more than usual). So Christina and Melissa called me over from across the room ... they wanted me to laugh at something obscure and ridiculous. I walked over, and Melissa said, "Hey, Mical. ... Bumblebee." I kind of stood there for a second, gave them a weird look, and then laughed. They were both excited to see that saying some random word made me laugh. They started laughing too. (See! Laughing is a good thing - it's contagious!) My new nickname for Melissa is bumblebee. Good times. .... So yeah ... a simple story ... but fun.

Melissa is a pretty fun gal. I'm glad we're friends. :)

Friday, September 26, 2008

Needing Guidance?

Needing direction in your life right now? ........... ME TOO!

Here's a couple of verses I found in my Bible reading last night. Read these ... dwell on them ... take time with these by yourself (I mean - get your own Bible and look them up too!). ;)

Psalm 25:4-5
"Show me Your ways, O Lord, teach me Your paths; guide me in Your truth and teach me, for You are God my Savior, and my hope is in You all day long."

I have really been needing guidance lately ... and God hasn't been very clear ... but He HAS been faithful. These verses are a new prayer in my life ... and for the life of a good friend. And I also wanted to encourage you, fellow bloggers. :) Keep trusting that God WILL guide; He WILL direct; He IS teaching; and we DO have HOPE in Him! Keep dwelling on His word. Keep looking to Him for all the strength and hope and healing and restoration that you so desperately need. Keep asking Him for guidance. He WILL give it!

Seek His Face! That's what I'm striving after!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

One of the Best Inventions Known to Man (okay ... to Mical)!!! ;)

You guys!!! I experienced one of the coolest inventions I've ever seen - today - at 4:45pm!!! Listen to this! .........

I was in the UWC (the IUPUI University Writing Center) helping make copies of some of our handy handouts .... we headed downstairs to room 313 to make 20 copies of each. I went to learn how to use the copier ... so the fellow tutor I was with was gracious enough to let ME press all the buttons and put the paper in the appropriate places - in other words, I got to do the fun stuff. :D I mean, who doesn't like to push buttons? Seriously! So ... as if copying double-sided pages wasn't enough, I found out that this creative machine STAPLES THE PAGES FOR YOU!!!! Can you believe that?! ... I was flipping out! I had everyone in the surrounding area laughing at me because I was so awed! Who thought of THAT?! Someone amazing ... that's all I'm saying. Wow! AND ... as one last amazing note - this copier hole punches too! Wow! I told my fellow tutor, "Soon they'll be cooking our meals for us!"

Wow. Technology is advancing! Crazy! And oh, so much fun! (I'm sure this invention has been around for awhile - I'm out of the loop ... but it is one of those inventions that deserves praise - not the Jesus kind of praise, of course ... but the "wow, that's pretty cool" kind of praise!)

Too much fun! ............ I know I'm waaay too excited. But ya know, it's the simple things! ;)

That's all for now. :)

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

CHAOTICNESS!

Wow. I've been thinking a lot. My mind has been going crazy! ('Cause God is at work!!!) .....I've been thinking .... Some of the GREATEST lessons I've ever learned ... lessons that have not only STUCK with me but that have CHANGED me ... have all come from PAIN.

My spirit has been a huge ball of CHAOS for the past 6 weeks ... August 9th. Yep, I remember the day the chaotic spirit took over. I'm pretty much a spaz anyway ... so when crazy stuff hits, I become a spaz with a spirit that won't stop doing backflips and summersalts .... a spirit that won't stop going up and down and back and forth and - ahh! ... Okay, so in mentioning my chaoticness (yep, I just made up a new word!), I have been listening to an amazing song over and over and over again. The lyrics don't beat around the bush. And they are the story of my life right now. Good stuff ....

WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING (by Sanctus Real)

"It's time for healing, time to move on. It's time to fix what's been broken too long. Time to make right what has been wrong. It's time to find my way to where I belong. There's a wave that's crashing over me, and all I can do is surrender

Chorus: Whatever You're doing inside of me ... It feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace. It's hard to surrender to what I can't see, but I'm giving in to something Heavenly.

Time for a milestone. Time to begin again. Reevaluate who I really am. Am I doing everything to follow Your will, or just climbing aimlessly over these hills. So show me what it is You want from me. I give everything; I surrender ...To...

Whatever You're doing inside of me ... It feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace. It's hard to surrender to what I can't see, but I'm giving in to something Heavenly.

Time to face up, clean this old house. Time to breathe in and let everything out. That I've wanted to say for so many years. Time to release all my held back tears.

Whatever You're doing inside of me. It feels like chaos but I believe ... You're up to something bigger than me ... Larger than life, something Heavenly. Whatever You're doing inside of me. It feels like chaos but now I can see. This is something bigger than me ... Larger than life, something Heavenly. Something Heavenly.

It's time to face up ... Clean this old house. Time to breathe in and let everything out."

This song is EXACTLY my life right now!!!!! Chaoticness! And yet God brings peace. Chaos. Chaos. Peace.

Psalm 62:8 --- "Trust in HIM at ALL times, O people; POUR OUT your hearts to HIM, for GOD is our REFUGE."

Isaiah 26:3 --- "You (God!) will keep in PERFECT PEACE him whose mind is STEADFAST, because he TRUSTS IN YOU."

AMAZING thoughts from Alex! :D

Oh my goodness! Go! Right now! To Alex's blog! Read her post "Submission and Stillness." (To get there, click on the "Rant, Repose, and Ruminate" link under Fellow Bloggers on my page).

It is an AMAZING message that will convict and encourage you in your walk with Jesus! Beware though! This post is NOT for the faint of heart!

GO!!!! Check it out - right now!!! :D

Have a blessed day, my blogger friends! We serve and AMAZING and FAITHFUL and INCREDIBLE God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Just Some Thoughts :)

Alright. Once again, I should be doing homework. But I'll get to it right after this post! Honest! God's been pouring on the peace this morning in the midst of some sadness, so I'm gonna share!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A song - "Blessed is the One" .... if you can get ahold of the Daniel Doss Band on iTunes or by going to the store to buy it or in some way, shape, or form - do it! If God is bringing craziness your way or taking some things away from you or allowing hurt into your life .... the lyrics to this entire cd have been an amazing comfort.

"Blessed is the one who trusts You. Like a tree that CANNOT be moved." ... chorus - "Blessed is the one who trusts You, FAITHFUL, JUST, and GOOD ... SHEPHERD of my HEART. Lead me to where You are, for I will trust You."

Good stuff! God is the SHEPHERD of our hearts! Isn't that an amazing thought!!!??? Shepherds watch over their sheep; they protect them from wolves/bears/lions/crazy trials and tribulations! They leave the 99 to find the ONE and bring her back! My one heart ... God cares about my one, little heart. And He cares about yours too! Trust Him with it!!!!!!!!

Another song - "Beauty from Pain." If you are going through pain right now ... listen to this Superchick song. The lyrics are amazing - EXACTLY what I've been going through and what I'm COMING OUT OF!

Chorus: "After all this has passed, I still will remain. After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain. Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again. And there'll be beauty from pain. You will bring beauty from my pain."

NO MATTER WHAT is going on in your life right now! Pain? Jesus is standing at your side, PULLING YOU THROUGH! He's gonna bring BEAUTY from that pain!!!! TRUST HIM FOR THAT! I am. :)

A passage of scripture - Psalm 20.

I've been reading through Psalms for my morning devotions, and I arrived at Psalms 19 and 20 this morning. The Psalms are good! Read 'em! ... Today!!! This Psalm is my prayer for all of you who are hurting and healing from wounds God has allowed into your life (By the way, they are there to GROW you!!!! - I'm growing through mine!).

"May the Lord answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you. May He send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion. May He remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings. MAY HE GIVE YOU THE DESIRE OF YOUR HEART AND MAKE ALL YOUR PLANS SUCCEED. We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the Lord grant all your requests. Now I know that the Lord saves His anointed; He answers him from His holy heaven with the saving power of His right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, BUT WE RISE UP AND STAND FIRM. O Lord, save the king! Answer us when we call."

Yeah! Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Doesn't that just give you a BOOST?! Me too! .... Keep leaning on Jesus! Some crazy things are happening in my life right now ... God is calming my heart, but wow! Crazy! All I know is that OUR GOD IS FAITHFUL!!!

KEEP TRUSTING HIM! :D

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Mical's Wish List

Hey! So I just got the idea to post my wish list on here! You all should do it too!!! (Maybe I'll keep your wishes in mind for your next birthday!) ;) ... The thought just hit me. :) And knowing the kinds of things that I like (that I WANT) can help you know me a bit better, I think. Yeah! I'll post my "wish list," and you post yours! Then we'll know more about each other. Yep ... let's do it! ;)

Mical's Wish List (as of right now anyway) ... oh, and these are MATERIAL things ... the things I REALLY want are of considerably more depth than little goofy things. Ha ha!

MICAL'S WISH LIST:

#1 - the new David Phelps CD!!! "The Voice" - I'm usually in the store the DAY it comes out! But I have been so broke lately that I have been buying little necessities with spare change! I am so blessed that my parents are generous! They keep me afloat sometimes!

For those who don't know, David Phelps is THE BEST SINGER IN THE WORLD!!!!! I'm serious! You will NOT find a better singer! Anywhere! He used to sing in the Gaither Vocal Band, so if you like Southern Gospel music (rockin' 4-part male harmony!!!!!!!!!!!) then check out some of the Gaither music (WITH David, of course! ... He is no longer in the band - sadness). Or just look him up in Contemporary Christian music aisles - he has great solo albums out!

Okay ... #2 - the new Superchick CD! "Rock What You Got" - I'm a big fan of Superchick. They have some crazy sounds at times, but oh, so fun! And their lyrics are REAL - real life experiences!!!! Songs like "Crawl" and "Beauty from Pain" and "Stand in the Rain" have been an amazing blessing as God has been taking me through many trials as of late! Good stuff! Check 'em out sometime! Read their lyrics!

#3 - a New American Standard WIDE MARGIN Bible (bonded leather cover)!!!!!!!!!!!! (This really should be #1 on my list because I want one sooooo badly!) I LOVE to write in my Bible, and I just don't have enough room! I am almost through my entire Bible, and I grew up on the NIV. (Yes, I haven't read the entire Bible yet. That Old Testament is a trip! Numbers and Song of Solomon to go, and then I'm through it though!) I heart the NIV version, but I've heard that the NASB is closer to the original Hebrew ... and that's what my Pastor uses to teach 95% of the time ... and yes, Ben ... what the all-amazing Grace folks use too! ;) Ha ha! ... I've also been trying to find new ways to study my Bible, and I think starting to read through the whole Bible in a new version (the NASB) will be helpful in continuing to shape my foundation of scripture. :) That will be the FIRST thing I buy from this list when I'm not quite so broke! :)

#4 - a volleyball. Yep, volleyball is my favorite sport. My car trunk is full of sports balls/equipment for when me and the HG fam get together for some fun. I think I have everything in there except a volleyball. Okay ... so maybe I need a frisbee too. ;)

#5 - a new pair of crocs. Yes, I know they are ridiculous looking shoes, but they are sooooo comfy! It's like wearing slippers all day long! I have had mine for just over a year, and they have huge holes in the bottom ... but I can't bring myself to throw them away. I think they are my favorite material item that I own (after my Bible)!

Hmm ... I think that's all. Good times! What are some things on YOUR wish list??? ;)

A Great Conversation ... and another found PROMISE from the Lord!

Conversation! Isn't it great!!!??? Conversation is one of favorite things ever! For those who know me well, I'm sure you know I love to talk(!) ... loudly and excitedly, most of the time! ;) Ha ha! And conversation is one of my favorite things to do! I just love people! So therefore, I love to talk with them ... since that's what we human beings tend to do from time to time. ;)

I had a GREAT conversation with a friend on Thursday night, and it was one of the most encouraging, uplifting conversations I've had in awhile. One of the most God-centered conversations, for sure! Don't you love it when you meet people who are just bursting with Jesus!? (Alex is that new friend I'm talking about, by the way!) :) .... It was a great time! We sat and talked about Psalm 37 (one of her favorites) for awhile, and then we moved through the rest of the Psalms and even into Isaiah and Jeremiah and Proverbs ... talking about all of the verses we had underlined in our Bibles. It was great! Hearing Alex talk about the way God was using His word in her life was inspiring and exciting. It gave me a bit of a push to get me through the rest of my week.

During our trip through Psalms, Proverbs, Isaiah, and Jeremiah .... I "stumbled across" a word from the Lord! One, I believe, He meant specifically for me at that moment! I've been in real need of guidance, healing, and comfort over the past 6 weeks, and God has been giving it - a lot - over the past week. :)

Isaiah 57:18-19 says .... "I have seen his ways, but I will heal him; I will guide him and restore comfort to him, creating praise on the lips of the mourners in Israel."

WHAT A PROMISE!!! God is faithful! The EXACT things I need in my life right now, all in one verse! And all because God provides godly friends to share CONVERSATION with! Amazing stuff!

Conversation .... you should try it sometime - and often! :)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Sheesh Maneesh! The Typos!!!!

So only an English major would care enough about her typos to write a whole blog post about 'em! This is short .... I just have two things to say about my typos.

#1: They drive me crazy! ... and yet I am too lazy to go back and fix all of them. (I guess I'm not TOO crazy in my Englishness. Ha!)

#2: I "proofread" all of my posts, and I still miss some obvious errors. You'd never know I work in the IUPUI Writing Center! Ha ha! What a hoot!

Okay ... that's all. ... Continue reading my blog, please! More to come! - About God's faithfulness ... about amazing friends (mine!). :)

An Afternoon with Barrett

Whew! What a long morning! Getting up at 5:30am to exercise has been good, but man! The mornings seems so much longer! I am wiped out already ... and falling asleep in my classes - eek! I think my body still needs time to get used to getting up so early! Whoa! ... But anyway! I'm taking a break from my busy morning to post about a little guy I've been thinking about a lot this week. :)

Yep, I'm talking about Barrett Nilsen - my favorite little guy in the world!!! I got to spend the afternoon with him on Sunday and had the time of my life! The Higher Ground/Grace folks went to Q'doba for lunch on Sunday afternoon, and the Nilsens came too. :) Yay Mike, Judy, Alec, and Barrett! ... Barrett was super fun at lunch - being the crazy-fun 6 year old that he is. :) He was jumping from lap to lap and talking non-stop! Way too much fun!!! ... He sat on my lap for awhile, and when Mike and Judy left, he told me he was going to the Children's Museum with Ben. He said, "You can come with us if you want to." And pretty much from that moment, I was determined to go! ;) When your favorite little guy invites you to come along, you go! ;) I've been wanting to get to know Barrett better for a long while, so I knew I was going with them! :D And a funny note - later, during lunch, Barrett and Ben were getting ready to leave, talking about the Children's Museum ... and Barrett looked at me and said, "I don't think you're coming." I laughed and told Ben that he must've changed his mind about me coming. Ha! It was pretty funny. ;) So Ben, Brittney, and Barrett left for the CM, and I finished chatting with some folks. After I dropped Tiff off at the church, I called Ben and asked if I could tag along on their adventure to the CM. :)

By the time I got there, they had seen much of the place, so we only stayed an hour or so longer. But during that time, I had Barrett nearly all to myself! I let Ben and Brittney talk, and I followed Barrett all over the building. We crawled under the train displays, ran through the black light maze, sat in a submarine, ran from a "bomb" on the main floor of the submarine (Barrett pushed a button; it started flashing ... we decided the submarine might blow up, so we ran away!), and my favorite event - we had a sword fight with the funky-shaped glass creations in the basement of the CM. All our adventures were the highlight of my week ... but my favorite part (hands down!) was when we were walking to the parking garage at the end of the day. We walked out the doors of the CM, and Barrett ran to me and grabbed my hand. He held my hand the whole way back to the parking garage, until he kissed me on the arm and Ben pulled him away saying "Girls are gross, Barrett!" *Another side note .... what exactly is Ben saying here? Is he really saying that GIRLS are gross or that MICAL is gross!? Ha ha! Either way ... I was bummed that he pulled my new little friend away! Barrett put up a fight though. He grabbed my hand again and wouldn't let go! ... It truly was the best part of my week - kisses from Barrett? What is better!? ;) *Yet another side note .... I think I lied to you, James Nilsen - whoops. ;) I DO love it when littlun's grab my hand as we walk ... and hugs from 'em ... and, in this case, kisses! .... Okay - back to the point! ;)

My time with Barrett on Sunday afternoon was one of the best times I've had in awhile. :) I keep telling Ben that I want to steal him, plop him down in my room, and just talk with him all day long! Some folks may not see the joy in hanging out with little kids ... maybe it's one of those simply joys in my life ... but really - try it sometime! Kids are incredibly fun and can teach you a lot!

An afternoon with Barrett ... the highlight of my week! And I'm still excited about it 3 days later! ;) .... My advice to all you fellow bloggers ... spend some time with Barrett - and soon! :)

Monday, September 15, 2008

Gettin' some balance to this crazy life!!!! :D

Well, I'm at it again! ... Posting while I'm at school. .... I got here early, read my Bible for a bit and then studied for a bit ... I'm entitled to a post, don'tcha think? ;) Ha ha!

Well, just want to share something new I started today ... and plan to continue! It's kind of a new goal, I guess you could say. ... I've been trying to find some balance in my life since school started back on that crazy first day - August 20, 2008. Lots of crazy things hit just a couple weeks before school started, and I have been struggling to find purpose, motivation, balance, and SANITY! ;) Well, I've been crying out to God a lot lately ... trusting Him, growing in Him - good stuff. And this morning I began my road to BALANCE! I'm working on balancing my school work, commuting to and from school, exercise, relationships, ministries, "sane time" (some time to simply REST!), and of course - my walk with God. :) I've been really struggling ... but I'm on my way!!!!! This morning, I got up super early (yep, 5:30am - bluck!), packed my lunch, packed my bag, and headed to the Fitness Experts (our local workout arena!). I RAN and walked for a bit, took a shower, grabbed my granola bars and apple, and headed to school.

It is AMAZING the energy and clear mind and sense of hope and joy and strength that is surrounding me this morning!!! I may not be this "peppy" every morning (after getting up at 5:30am! Blaaahhh!), but today, I'm off to an amazing start! (It also helps that I prayed with my pastor about some things last night, and I'm closer to surrendering some things! But that's a side note!) ;) ... Exercising early in the morning will give me more time to rest and do homework and spend time with the Lord in the evenings. And then I'll get up and do it all over again!

My purpose is back! (Not that it ever really left!) God is faithful! I may have bummer moments, down days, and the like at times .... but God is standing at my side - pushing me, loving me through, and growing me up in Him AND in my abilities! Yay for having purpose in Jesus!!!

Have a great week, my blogger friends! Keep leaning on Jesus! Keep seeking after Him and loving Him more with each BREATH! He is ALL that we need! :D

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Quick Thought!

Just a quick thought for this evening ....

Jesus loves me.

Jesus loves you.



We are good to go! :D

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Just some thoughts from a broken yet healing heart ...

Hmm ....

So what do you do with pain? How do you cope with the hurts that come your way? What is the answer when you feel like you can do NOTHING else but cry? How do you deal with feelings of deep sadness? How do you glorify God in your pain? What is the answer when you have no answers? When you are getting no answers? What is the answer? ... Or should I say whom?

Yep, that's right! Jesus! Jesus!!!! JESUS IS THE ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When you have no answers to your questions ... to your longings that are not fulfilled ... to the purpose you feel you lack ... to the feelings of bitterness, inadequacy, longing, and pain you feel so deep down in your soul .... JESUS! When you don't know what to do? JESUS! When you can't focus on anything but the bummers that are in your life - JESUS! No matter what happens - Jesus is the answer!!!

Huh. ........ I have been a Christian for almost 16 years ... and isn't it crazy and amazing and wow-fun when God teaches you new things that are so simple? Isn't it amazing that after years and years of being a follower of Christ, Jesus pours so much into your life that you can't help but grow in Him in new and amazing ways? Isn't it unfathomable how much God loves us in spite of our worry, our lack of trust, our wallowing in pain? Isn't it beyond amazing how God shows us more of Himself when we really and truly and wholly seek Him? When we genuinely cry out to Him for help and fulfillment and hope and rest and strength? He gives it! He gives it all so freely! He is so ready to take our burdens, to love us through them, to give us hope and purpose (or to remind us of the hope and purpose we already have in Him!).

The faithfulness of God ... there really is NOTHING like it! Even in the midst of some crazy things going on in my life, God is FAITHFUL. He is constantly reminding me of His PLAN for my life! That He is NOT done writing my sentence (God's Grammar Lessons - remember that post?). He is not done putting in all of the punctuation. He is not done crafting the important parts of my sentence - where the commas go, where the action verbs and linking verbs go (those things that I DO and those things that God is LINKING to the other parts of my life to make my life complete), where the nouns go (the people, places, and things that God is planning out for me to experience), where the adjectives go (the beautiful and pure and amazing events, people, situations, and fulfilled desires that God is planning out for my life!). He has EACH and EVERY part of my life's sentence planned out! He is faithful to complete it! One of my FAVORITE verses in scripture is Philippians 1:6 - "being confident of this, that He who began a GOOD work in YOU will carry it on to COMPLETION until the day of Christ Jesus." What a promise! He's got everything planned out ... right down to the smallest details of my life! And He has promised to carry the GOOD on to COMPLETION! COMPLETE! That's what I want to be! Not lacking anything! Like it says in James 1:4 - "And perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and COMPLETE, not lacking anything." .... Man. Good stuff!

I am holding onto those promises today! Why don't you try to as well? :) God is faithful - He NEVER fails. Keep leaning on Him with all that you are!!!!!!!!!!!! And I will too! :D

Friday, September 12, 2008

Cookie Cutter Friend (Part 4)

So I've been thinking about one of my best friends tonight .... she is far away. Sadness. ;( Just been thinking about how much I love her and miss her and wish she were here. ........... Yep, I'm talking about my final Cookie Cutter Friend - Shelley Chambers! :) ....... MAN! The "enter" button on my laptop is not working again! Gosh, I hate posts that are all run together! Oh well. ........ So it is hard to know where to start with this CCF. She is simply great. She has been one of my best friends since the first month I met her - just about 8 years ago. (For those who don't know, Shelley is my youth pastor's wife, and they now live in Poplar Bluff, Missouri, serving as youth pastors at a church there.) ............. Shelley is not only one of my best friends, but she is one of my mentors/role-models, my comfort (next to Jesus, of course!), one of my strongest encouragers, my second mom (even though she isn't old enough to be!), the person I tell all of my deepest longings and greatest joys and most awful hurts ... she's just someone I can share with ... and she is one of the people I adore most in this life! She has been there to listen to my hurts, my girly emotional "trauma," my joys ... and to watch me grow in Christ, in convictions, in dreams, in who I am as a person. And she has contributed to all of those areas of growth in my life. :) ......... Some of my favorite moments with Shelley have been our e-mail conversations - even when she was still here in Danville - we had some great e-mail conversations .... about boys, about love, about Jesus, about God's plan and purpose for my life, about my future husband, about growing in the midst of pain, about healing from pain, about God's word ... and the list could go on! She is the one I talk to about everything. :) She is one of the first people I turn to in any and every circumstance. Shelley is one of those people whom God cut out at the beginning of time - to be apart of my life! God knew I needed Shelley. :) .................. It is hard to think about her not being a 10-minute drive away anymore. It's more like a 6-hour drive. *Sigh* But God keeps us together. :) It's one of those friendships that will never fade ... one of those friendships that lasts even when the relationship is strained and we're apart for so long ... it's one of those Cookie Cutter Friendships. :) ...... Man, do I miss this CCF! Love you, Shelley!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

God's Grammar Rules 101

Alright! Another homework break post! Swweeet! :D

Before I start .... I forgot to include the scripture reference for my last post (the one about Mary and Martha!). Check out Luke 10:38-42. And let's be Marys!!!! :)

Okay! So it's on to grammar! Yep, you know it!!!!! (It's true I'm an English major, and it's true I DO like grammar!) ... This is a different kind of grammar. I got the idea from the Mary/Martha book I told you about yesterday. In one chapter, the author discusses "God's Grammar Rules," and one rule in particular stuck out for me! So I thought I'd share it. As I thought more about the "grammar rules" from God, I thought of a few more ... but we'll talk about those another day! :)

Today (Yes!), I want to talk to you about commas and periods. And the rule for today is:

"Don't put a period where God puts a comma."

Yep, you got it! Don't stop when God brings "pauses" to your life. ... When I heard this grammar lesson while on my way to school yesterday, I wanted to jump out of the car and do a cartwheel or something! It was one of those moments when God just jumps out of the text (usually it's the Bible I'm talking about, but in this case, I'm talking about the Having a Mary Spirit in a Martha World book) and smacks you right in the head! And it was a good smack, as they always are - full of conviction and encouragement!

God has been bringing a lot of "pauses" to my life over the past 6 months. Boy, has He!!!! These pauses have taken the form of heartbreak. And they are heartbreaks that I HAVE BEEN seeing as PERIODS! Bummer, I know. But I've been thinking about these "periods" over the past few days ... and they really are NOT periods at all ... they are COMMAS!!! YESSSSS!!! We don't need to freak out when God delays things or when He "takes things away" or when He says "wait, my child." We don't have to take those actions that God performs as periods - as things that are done and over. ... Just because I couldn't pass a silly test doesn't mean I'm not gonna be a teacher (many options out there!) .... just because things didn't work out with a special someone doesn't mean God doesn't know what He's doing! God STILL has a plan for those things in my life! He may put me in a teaching position I didn't picture myself in - teaching English to kids in China, teaching/helping kids learn basic skills (how to take care of themselves) in a village in Africa, working with/discipling young kids in the inner city, substitute teaching in Hendricks County schools .... and the list could keep going! God knows what He's doing, and He HAS a plan!!!! These so called "periods" in my life are actually commas!

God has our entire lives planned out (think of our lives as an entire sentence). He places punctuation in our lives to spice up our lives (just as punctuation gives life to a sentence and keeps it from being boring, ineffective, and awkward). God puts commas and periods and exclamation points and question marks and all kinds of punctuation in our lives to make our lives BETTER!!! And more importantly! He puts them ALL in the RIGHT places! :) Working in the IUPUI Writing Center, I KNOW how IMPORTANT it is to put punctuation in the right spots!!! Ha ha!

Soooo ......... do you have some commas that God's put in your life that you've been treating like periods??? Granted, they COULD be periods. God DOES stop things in our lives and tell us "no" regarding some things, but sit and think about your "periods." Are they really periods? Or are they commas? Don't let "pauses" in your life get you down (I'm trying not to!). God has the entire sentence already written ... you have already come across some punctuation, and there is so much more to come! Keep reading the sentence of your life (living your life!)! Don't give up! Go to the Writing Center for help (GOD!)!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA! I am cracking myself up with this analogy! Isn't it amazing???!!! (I work in the writing center; I'm an English major .... this stuff is funny!)

Well, okay! I need to get back to homework and eat some lunch and get to class. .... Keep pressing through those commas (and whatever other punctuation you're enduring)! God has a plan! I will strive to do the same!!!! ...... And stay tuned for more "grammar lessons" from God (brought to you by me)! :)

Have a wonderful day, my blogger friends! :)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

A Martha striving to be a Mary! :D

Oh, man! I am listening to a great book on cd on my way to school in the mornings, and it is amazing!!!

EVERYONE (well, every woman!)!!!!!!! Find Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World by Joanna Weaver, and read it ... or listen to it ... or something!!!!!! It is a book about finding intimacy with God when you are crazy busy all the time! But it is about so much more!!! EVERY single day I listen to this book, I am smacked up side the head! ... Okay, so if you don't like to be smacked, then this book is not for you! But in reality ... you need to read it/listen to it anyway! It is FULL of godly conviction and encouragement! Convicting me to make myself COMPLETELY available to God - being a MARY, who sits at Jesus' feet NO MATTER how busy I get! I am most certainly a MARTHA - the kind of woman who wants to do it ALL - wants to serve, wants to encourage, wants to get involved with every ministry, every Bible study, every social event on the planet (and DOES!!!)! (Plus, I have school and friends and BLOGGING, of course!) ;) And I'm also like Martha concerning my "too busy 'serving' you, Lord, to spend time with you" attitude at times. ... I'm getting better - waking up earlier to spend the first few minutes of the day with my Lord and trying to start a habit of doing my evening devotions right when I get home from school instead of right before I go to bed when I am falling asleep BEFORE I even hit my pillow! But I still have a LONG way to go! So yeah. Whew!

I am most certainly a Martha ... but I am striving all the harder to be a Mary! What are YOU??? Are you a Martha woman who spends all your time doing the 'right' things? Trying to please God and love Him but finding you're too busy to be intimate with Him? Or are you a Mary ... a woman who drops everything (no matter how busy!) to sit at your Master's feet? Wow! What a question! It's pretty loaded, really. Sit and ponder on that for a while. "Am I a Mary or a Martha?" ....... I'M gonna strive to be more like Mary! :)

Gosh! I also have a cool thought from this Martha/Mary book that I want to share - it's about "God's Grammar Lessons" - but I will have to share about that later! I am off to Spanish class! Hasta luego, amigos! (Or "amigAs" in this case ... because I think only women read my blog.) ;)

Stay tuned for an IMPORTANT grammar lesson from God (brought to you by me). :D

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

NO MORE COMPLAINING! ... And a quick "pick me up" friend story :)

Ha! So I just posted a few minutes ago, but I'm back at it again! I got off of "fun and faithful," got some homework done, and then started thinking. ... My bitterness has turned me into a complainer!!!! Sure, there is a fair amount of just sharing your hurt ... but I am on my way to Gripesville! Get me out of here!!!!! I've taken the highway on the side that says "WRONG WAY!" all over it for too long! I need to pull a U-ie! ... It'll be a hard U-ie to pull off, but I'm gonna try! And it is NOT illegal by any stretch! Actually, it is a COMMAND!!!!! So I'm gonna attempt it (even if it is a PROCESS)!

Thought I'd share some new goals that I have. It's a short list, but I thought if I share it, you all can give me a hard time when I start complaining again and keep me accountable! So ... the following are my goals ... goals that God has been pressing on my heart lately.

#1 - ENCOURAGE! - Work harder at using my spiritual gifting! "THIS is what I've called you to do NOW, Mical Masterson!" (from God)

#2 - LET GO! - Work on letting go of the JUNK going on in my life - REALLY let go! "I'm taking care of it ALL, my dear child." (from God)

#3 - GLORIFY GOD! - I looked up the word "glory" in the dictionary recently, and it talked about bringing satisfaction, pride, or pleasure to something/someone. So! I'm gonna work at bringing God pleasure ... and making Him proud of me! "This is ALL that I am asking of you right now ... to glorify Me - nothing else! Keep going, you crazy and loved girl!" (from God)

Okay! That's it! ..... Isn't it crazy and great how God convicts (and encourages) us to DO and to BE even in our times of pain? I bet it's to help us get OUT of that pain and to help us GROW! To help us LEAN ON HIM! Dependency ... we are completely and entirely in need of Jesus!!!!!!! Sometimes I forget that! I think God is a bringin' me back! SWWEEET!

And guess what! This JUST happened! So I'm soooooo sharing it!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sitting in the library at school right now ... TRYING to get some homework done! (When you are having a bad day, it is just so stinkin' hard to focus! So I'm blogging a little to help pick myself up!) But anyway! I'm sitting here blogging ... and all of a sudden I see Jeremy Wright heading my way! He was on campus for something and had seen me in the library a week or so ago, so he was back on campus again today and thought he'd stop by just to see if I was in the library again! WOW! What a GOD MOMENT!!!!!!!!!! Don't you LOVE those!!!!??? Oh, man!!!!!!!!! ... Jeremy is one of those "pick me up" people in my life. An incredible blessing EVERY time I see him! No matter what, he ALWAYS gives me the pick me up I need! .... He just came by to say hi, and he let me know that he's been praying for me. ENTIRELY what I needed today! .......... Wow! ........... WOW!!!! ............ WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm pretty much beaming, with tears in my eyes! How can I even think, for one second, that God is NOT in the healing process!? Little things like Jeremy being on campus and coming to find me is just ONE example of God's power and WILLINGNESS to bring healing! And to bring encouragement right when I need it!!!!!!!!!! Wow, God! Wow!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, so I'm on a Jesus high at the moment! I will work on staying there! And even when I get down, remember that God is providing and sustaining and establishing in every moment of every day of my life! Wow! Our God is BEYOND amazing!!!!!

WOW!

Digging deep and getting no where ... or so it feels.

So I'm at school and really should be working on homework ... but I'm taking a short break.

I want to ask for all of you blogger friends to pray for me. God sure is faithful ... but He is delaying the healing process for some things in my life right now. I know He's teaching me things through it, but at the moment, I cannot see the lessons - even though I've been crying out to God "teach me what you want me to know!" "No matter what you let me go through, I love you! I trust you! I will follow you!" ... Could ya'll pray that I will let go and just glorify God? Will you pray that I will not harbor bitterness any longer and just live in the joy of God's promises?

One of the AMAZING things about this relationship with Jesus is that NO MATTER WHAT hits me in this messed up, fallen existence, I still have joy. That is one of the many things that proves Jesus' existence in our lives! It holds us apart from the world. We have JOY, which is totally different from happiness! Joy is always ... happiness is temporal. Anyway! I have joy, but right now the downers of this life are attacking me and burying my joy deep down. My joy IS still there, but it is waaaayy down, deep in my spirit right now. Know that I am fiercely digging deep ... EVERYday I grab my shovel - first thing - and dig! But I keep hitting huge rocks! Ya know? When you dig in your backyard ... maybe you're planting flowers or even a whole new tree! ... And you hit rocks and roots and such? I find myself digging consistently, but I get so exhausted because these huge rocks of bitterness or sadness or discouragement or inadequacy or loss or whatever ... just get in the way! I feel like I'm digging deep and getting no where!

But ya know? I am! If I really calm down and get honest with myself, I AM getting somewhere! Because God is growing me! I don't know in what ways yet, but He is growing me! (I'm trying to be realistic and not let the "depths of despair" overtake me! - And yep, I'm totally stealing one of my favorite phrases from Anne of Green Gables!)

Please keep me in prayer, if you would. God is sooooo faithful! He DOES have a plan! I am just caught in a hole of rocks and roots and such, exhausted from the dig. But I can't stop digging! Giving up is not an option!

GOTTA KEEP DIGGING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Too bad that's so much easier said than done).

Saturday, September 6, 2008

It'll Be (more than) Alright! (AGAIN!)

So I'm still kind of on the down side of the emo coaster today. Don't you hate that? When your spirit wants to get excited about the work God is doing in your life but your heart and mind are in the dumps? Has that ever happened to you? If not, I'm so glad! If so, I know exactly where you're at!

So today, I'm gonna throw out a few more things to remind myself (and maybe some of you all who are having a dumpy day) that it'll be (more than) alright ... as God continues to heal.

Here is a song that God has been putting on my heart lately. It is a GREAT song to sing when I am being dumpy and thinking only about myself and the pain I'm feeling. If you don't know it, catch me when I'm feeling bold, and I'll sing it to ya! :) Here are the lyrics.

I NEED YOU MORE

I need You more, more than yesterday. I need You more.
More than words can say, I need You more ... than ever before.
I need You more. I need You more.
More than the air I breathe, more than this song I sing, more than the next heartbeat.
More than anything, and Lord, as time goes by ... You will be by my side.
And I never want to go back to my old life.
Right here, in Your presence is where I belong.
I know my broken heart has finally found a home. And I'll never be alone.
I need You more.

And here's another song that I want to be the prayer of my life!

JESUS, BE THE CENTER

Jesus, be the Center.
Jesus, be the Center.
Be my Source; be my Light, Jesus.
Jesus, be the Center.
Jesus, be the Center.
Be my Hope; be my Song, Jesus.
Be the Fire in my heart; be the Wind in these sails.
Be the Reason that I live, Jesus. Jesus.
Jesus, be my Vision.
Jesus, be my Vision.
Be my Path; be my Guide, Jesus.
Jesus. Jesus.

I pray that all those who read this post are NOT feeling dumpy ... but for those who are, keep leaning on Jesus. That is what I'm striving to do! Let Jesus be your song today! That's what I'm gonna try to do for the rest of my day! ... Yay! It is amazing how striving to bless others fills me with joy (and will hopefully lift up your day!). :) Let's keep runnin' this race, guys! "Our light and momentary struggles are achieving for us an eternal glory!" I'm holding onto that promise! Wanna join me? :)

Hebrews 12:1-2 --- "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us THROW OFF EVERYTHING THAT HINDERS and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us RUN WITH PERSEVERANCE THE RACE MARKED OUT FOR US. Let us FIX OUR EYES ON JESUS, the Author and Perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider Him who endured such opposition from sinful men, SO THAT YOU WILL NOT GROW WEARY AND LOSE HEART."

Thursday, September 4, 2008

It'll Be (more than) Alright!!!

Wow. I'm ready to give up.

Have you ever felt that way? Ever felt like life is just too much sometimes? Like you want to pull your hair out and burn all your school books and skip all your classes and ditch all your jobs and forget about all of your commitments and throw a temper tantrum and cry till your heart hurts worse than it already does and laugh at all of your "problems" and "pains" and dig yourself a hole and never come out? Yeah ... me neither. ................ Ha ha ha ha!

Well, my mind feels like ALL of these things at the moment, but my heart is telling me to chill out and rest in God's peace. Ya know, if God wasn't so incredibly and entirely faithful, I WOULD have given up by now! Life is hard sometimes, isn't? Whether you've had all of your heart's deepest longings put on hold (yep, I'm saying put on hold, instead of lost - aren't you proud of me?!) or you have lost a loved one or you're battling depression or you're feeling hopeless or any other countless things that seem to go wrong in this life. There is hope! Hope in God's MIGHTY faithfulness! ... God has been pouring on His faithfulness ... pouring it into my life for so long! And I find myself griping and complaining - like tonight - I got home from a super long day at school and work and just spilled it all out for my mom to hear. I'm sure she was tired of listening long before half way through, but thank God she just listened ... and then said "it'll be alright." .... "It'll be alright." ... Those are such simple words, but don't you want to hear that every now and then? ... I do!

Tonight, I want to shout out a message of God's faithfulness to you AND TO ME! IT'LL BE ALRIGHT! ... Actually, it'll be MORE than alright! God promises that He will take care of us. And His EVERYDAY, NEVER-ENDING faithfulness reveals that He DOES take care of us - each and every day - each and every moment - with each and every breath of our lives. Some verses that God's been using in my life lately to reveal and instill His faithfulness are the following. Read these now. Read these later. Soak 'em up! For they are LIFE to your whole self!!!!

Psalm 73:25-26 --- "Whom have I in heaven but You? And earth has nothing I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart may fail, but GOD is the STRENGTH of my heart and my PORTION FOREVER!"

Psalm 62:7 --- "My salvation and my honor DEPEND on GOD; He is MY MIGHTY ROCK, MY REFUGE!"

Psalm 32:8 & 32:10b --- "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. ... but the Lord's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in Him."

Proverbs 19:21 --- "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails."

Proverbs 3:5-6 --- "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

Jeremiah 17:7-8 --- "But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit."

Jeremiah 29:11 --- "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 --- "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being RENEWED day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an ETERNAL GLORY that far outweighs them all. So we FIX OUR EYES not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is TEMPORARY, but what is unseen is ETERNAL."

I am writing this MORE as a comfort to myself! But ya'll might need some of this stuff too! :)

Keep trusting Jesus, Mical! Keep seeking Him and loving Him, Mical! Keep your eyes FIXED on Him, Mical! Keep at it, Mical! It'll be (MORE than) alright, Mical!