Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Imperfect Progress

Hello! ... It's hard to believe it's been nearly 11 months since my last post.  My life has changed so much since May 2012.  My last post was just a few days before my beautiful, amazing husband proposed to me.  Yep, he proposed on May 21st last year.  We were married on September 15th.  And we just moved into our new and awesome apartment on March 30th ... just 3 days ago.

So much has happened.  It's simply amazing how God works in our lives each day ... and the seasons He brings us in and out of.  The seasons of life are always changing, aren't they?  In one way or another.  Relationships ... jobs ... lessons we're learning ... home addresses ... attitudes ... eating habits ... friendships ... perspectives ... dreams ... goals.  If it's not one thing, it's many things.  If it's not many things, it's one thing.  Something is always changing in our lives.  And change is good.  I know that's hard to believe at times, but change really is good.  Changes in life's relationships and circumstances and seasons are so incredibly important because they help us become the person we wanna be, the person we're supposed to be, and the person God called us to be.

I so badly want to be ALL that God has called me to be.  It is the greatest desire of my heart.  I struggle ... daily! ... with the CHANGE that requires.  If I wanna be everything God intended me to be, I must change my daily habits and attitudes.  While my flesh screams and wails about lazy and selfish pleasures, my heart cries out for godly, productive, and eternal joys. ... I wanna do better.  I wanna honor God with my mind, with the condition of my heart, with my relationships, with the way I take care of my body, with finances, with my Christian walk.  I fail so often, and I get caught up in my failures probably even more often. ... I don't wanna focus on my failures anymore.  I wanna focus on baby steps.  Better yet, I wanna steal Lysa TerKeurst's phrase and make it my own: I wanna live each day with IMPERFECT PROGRESS.  As long as I'm moving forward, I am making progress.  No matter how slow ... no matter how much I struggle in opposition ... no matter how many times I "fail."  I don't have to be perfect.

Mical, did you hear that?

YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE PERFECT!!!!!

I've spent my whole life striving.  The definition of striving is "struggling in opposition."  Striving is a good thing ... really it is.  Life is hard.  We must constantly fight against the flesh.  That is a good thing to do ... a MUST!  But striving isn't always good the way I do it.  I don't always struggle in opposition with God.  Often, I struggle in opposition with myself.  Me.  How can I overcome this?  How can I make myself better?  How can I be closer to perfect? ... And that's just NOT what God wants us to do with ourselves.  He wants the focus off ourselves and on Him.  He desires progress, not perfection.  He hopes that we thrive instead of strive.  And that's what I want too!  I wanna love God with all my heart, mind, and strength.  I want to love my husband with selfless love and be his helper.  I want to encourage the world.  I want to treat my body as a temple and get healthy.  I wanna crave God's Word and be a prayer warrior. ... I DON'T wanna be perfect.  I wanna be who GOD wants me to be and do what GOD wants me to do.  And all God desires is a pure heart and imperfect progress.