Somehow, I was able to get real honest with my partner. Her name was Kim. ... I shared with her that I want to marry a youth pastor ... that I don't want to be the one "in charge" forever ... that I want to work alongside someone, namely, my husband ... not have others work alongside me.
And she was surprised.
And I was surprised that she was surprised.
I have always dreamed this .... ever since I got into youth ministry, I've wanted to MARRY a youth pastor, not BE a youth pastor. ..... Now, God is good at conforming our desires to His ... so thankfully, I am in love with my position at Calvary. I LOVE being with my kids, loving on them, teaching them, encouraging them, just simply spending time with them. And I am confident that God has me where He wants me. But I still have an ache deep down ... an ache to work alongside my husband in ministry.
But to say all of that, I spilled some of this to Kim at the last session ..... and she prayed for me. And it meant so much to me that she prayed for me. A total stranger listened empathetically and prayed for me ... and I felt God moving in her prayer. .... I think it was one of the greatest blessings of the weekend.