Wow. I've been thinking a lot. My mind has been going crazy! ('Cause God is at work!!!) .....I've been thinking .... Some of the GREATEST lessons I've ever learned ... lessons that have not only STUCK with me but that have CHANGED me ... have all come from PAIN.
My spirit has been a huge ball of CHAOS for the past 6 weeks ... August 9th. Yep, I remember the day the chaotic spirit took over. I'm pretty much a spaz anyway ... so when crazy stuff hits, I become a spaz with a spirit that won't stop doing backflips and summersalts .... a spirit that won't stop going up and down and back and forth and - ahh! ... Okay, so in mentioning my chaoticness (yep, I just made up a new word!), I have been listening to an amazing song over and over and over again. The lyrics don't beat around the bush. And they are the story of my life right now. Good stuff ....
WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING (by Sanctus Real)
"It's time for healing, time to move on. It's time to fix what's been broken too long. Time to make right what has been wrong. It's time to find my way to where I belong. There's a wave that's crashing over me, and all I can do is surrender
Chorus: Whatever You're doing inside of me ... It feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace. It's hard to surrender to what I can't see, but I'm giving in to something Heavenly.
Time for a milestone. Time to begin again. Reevaluate who I really am. Am I doing everything to follow Your will, or just climbing aimlessly over these hills. So show me what it is You want from me. I give everything; I surrender ...To...
Whatever You're doing inside of me ... It feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace. It's hard to surrender to what I can't see, but I'm giving in to something Heavenly.
Time to face up, clean this old house. Time to breathe in and let everything out. That I've wanted to say for so many years. Time to release all my held back tears.
Whatever You're doing inside of me. It feels like chaos but I believe ... You're up to something bigger than me ... Larger than life, something Heavenly. Whatever You're doing inside of me. It feels like chaos but now I can see. This is something bigger than me ... Larger than life, something Heavenly. Something Heavenly.
It's time to face up ... Clean this old house. Time to breathe in and let everything out."
This song is EXACTLY my life right now!!!!! Chaoticness! And yet God brings peace. Chaos. Chaos. Peace.
Psalm 62:8 --- "Trust in HIM at ALL times, O people; POUR OUT your hearts to HIM, for GOD is our REFUGE."
Isaiah 26:3 --- "You (God!) will keep in PERFECT PEACE him whose mind is STEADFAST, because he TRUSTS IN YOU."